This October, Pat & I are privileged to have our good friend Judith write for us. Her article is one that wil inspire you to love yourself more. -Maan
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JUDITH RIANN FERNANDEZ
PAIN OF THERAPY
Unlike Cookies and Cream, who undeniably have the passion to write, I admit I was someone who despised filling out a one whole-sheet of paper whenever asked to write essays and formal themes during our high school and college days.
To write was a torture for me. However due to the pressing requirement of my best friends, Pat & Maan to post this blog on Friday I am now focused on gripping my momentum by munching on this 240-grams garlic buttered toast. Gee, it seems effective.
…however, I could feel an extreme confusion on what topic to write about. Could it be “Getting Married”? since most of my officemates are piled off f
or marriage this year, or should the topic be “Living Simply” as inspired by Bo Sanchez? What about a topic on my recently celebrated 25th birthday?
Well, right now, all I can see from the four corners of this room is Love.
It isn’t Valentine’s Day tomorrow, I know, but even if we admit it or not, eventually, at the end of our days, we know there’s only one thing that could make us truly happy… it’s love.
Honestly and seriously speaking I am in love with this man, the kind of love which we are all familiar with – “eros” or romance. His features seem to be familiar with my ex-boyfriend except that he has this cute sense of humor like mine. We jive with each other’s joke and his eyes seem to conquer my world every time he stares at me. I thought my heart’s capacity to love had already reached its limit but I was wrong. For three years, after my first boyfriend and I broke up, I, once again feel this feeling which makes the world go round, or twirls the world in a spin. Oh gosh, how I really missed this wonderful feeling.
You ask me how? How could I not notice him when he gives me the special attention I need? How could I not want him when his smile gives a tickle in my heart? How could I not like him when I always see his face wooing me to like him?
From the day I met him, I knew I already liked him. And from the very start I tried to resist such feeling. The more I strived against my feelin
gs the more he occupied my every waking and sleeping hours. Sounds crazy but it’s true. And when you’re in love, everybody gets to notice it because your eyes spark like a happy star. I remember very well yesterday when Janice, my seatmate in the office, asked me “Mare in love ka ba?”
But just last night, as I was reading one of Bo Sanchez’ book, “Fill Your Life With Miracles,” I read about the two types of pain – the pain of regret and the pain of commitment. I chose the latter. Know the song “Sad to Belong?” It’s the song that perfectly describes my situation. I would rather choose the pain of commitment than to weep with sadness of a thousand years. In life, we can really never escape pain but we can always settle for the pain that somehow can be cured by time.
My love story isn’t sad at all because it paves way to self-love. With my decision to let go, I had freed myself from the pain of regret, which indeed gave a meaningful love for myself.
My 25th birthday has been one of the most remarkable day for me. Not just because it’s my silver birthday, nor because I met with old friends, but because finally, I have learned to love myself again. Indeed, it gives me this unreserved happiness right now.
As I evaluate myself for this year, I came to realize that a lot of things have changed in me. I do things that I cannot do before like writing a blog such as this one, wearing a dress, singing on the stage in front of new acquaintances, treating myself to indulgences like a massage, pedicure and facial, riding on a treadmill to feel lighter, saying “No” to my friends sometimes when I don’t feel like doing or going with them, reading good books, giving tithes, enjoying my work, feeling satisfied with all I have and most especially feeling confident and in love about myself. Thank You Lord for these changes! I enjoyed these wonderful blessings so much.
Loving one’s self may seem selfish or self-indulgent but actually it’s not. Love experts even say that it is a pre-requisite to loving anyone else. So treat yourself very well starting today for we’ll never know what lies ahead of us.
Perhaps my writing is getting else where and I couldn’t find a way to end it. Maan, who happens to be seating in front of me, is already making a face while rushing me so much for this article so let me just end this with some lyrics, the song written by Michael Masser and Linda Creed, Greatest Love of all “The greatest love of all / Is easy to achieve / Learning to love yourself / It is the greatest love of all.”
Unlike Cookies and Cream, who undeniably have the passion to write, I admit I was someone who despised filling out a one whole-sheet of paper whenever asked to write essays and formal themes during our high school and college days.
To write was a torture for me. However due to the pressing requirement of my best friends, Pat & Maan to post this blog on Friday I am now focused on gripping my momentum by munching on this 240-grams garlic buttered toast. Gee, it seems effective.
…however, I could feel an extreme confusion on what topic to write about. Could it be “Getting Married”? since most of my officemates are piled off f
or marriage this year, or should the topic be “Living Simply” as inspired by Bo Sanchez? What about a topic on my recently celebrated 25th birthday?Well, right now, all I can see from the four corners of this room is Love.
It isn’t Valentine’s Day tomorrow, I know, but even if we admit it or not, eventually, at the end of our days, we know there’s only one thing that could make us truly happy… it’s love.
Honestly and seriously speaking I am in love with this man, the kind of love which we are all familiar with – “eros” or romance. His features seem to be familiar with my ex-boyfriend except that he has this cute sense of humor like mine. We jive with each other’s joke and his eyes seem to conquer my world every time he stares at me. I thought my heart’s capacity to love had already reached its limit but I was wrong. For three years, after my first boyfriend and I broke up, I, once again feel this feeling which makes the world go round, or twirls the world in a spin. Oh gosh, how I really missed this wonderful feeling.
You ask me how? How could I not notice him when he gives me the special attention I need? How could I not want him when his smile gives a tickle in my heart? How could I not like him when I always see his face wooing me to like him?
From the day I met him, I knew I already liked him. And from the very start I tried to resist such feeling. The more I strived against my feelin
gs the more he occupied my every waking and sleeping hours. Sounds crazy but it’s true. And when you’re in love, everybody gets to notice it because your eyes spark like a happy star. I remember very well yesterday when Janice, my seatmate in the office, asked me “Mare in love ka ba?”But just last night, as I was reading one of Bo Sanchez’ book, “Fill Your Life With Miracles,” I read about the two types of pain – the pain of regret and the pain of commitment. I chose the latter. Know the song “Sad to Belong?” It’s the song that perfectly describes my situation. I would rather choose the pain of commitment than to weep with sadness of a thousand years. In life, we can really never escape pain but we can always settle for the pain that somehow can be cured by time.
My love story isn’t sad at all because it paves way to self-love. With my decision to let go, I had freed myself from the pain of regret, which indeed gave a meaningful love for myself.
My 25th birthday has been one of the most remarkable day for me. Not just because it’s my silver birthday, nor because I met with old friends, but because finally, I have learned to love myself again. Indeed, it gives me this unreserved happiness right now.
As I evaluate myself for this year, I came to realize that a lot of things have changed in me. I do things that I cannot do before like writing a blog such as this one, wearing a dress, singing on the stage in front of new acquaintances, treating myself to indulgences like a massage, pedicure and facial, riding on a treadmill to feel lighter, saying “No” to my friends sometimes when I don’t feel like doing or going with them, reading good books, giving tithes, enjoying my work, feeling satisfied with all I have and most especially feeling confident and in love about myself. Thank You Lord for these changes! I enjoyed these wonderful blessings so much.
Loving one’s self may seem selfish or self-indulgent but actually it’s not. Love experts even say that it is a pre-requisite to loving anyone else. So treat yourself very well starting today for we’ll never know what lies ahead of us.
Perhaps my writing is getting else where and I couldn’t find a way to end it. Maan, who happens to be seating in front of me, is already making a face while rushing me so much for this article so let me just end this with some lyrics, the song written by Michael Masser and Linda Creed, Greatest Love of all “The greatest love of all / Is easy to achieve / Learning to love yourself / It is the greatest love of all.”
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1 comment:
I 100% agree! 2 important things vital in our life...self-love & self-acceptance. Before we can have a truly successful relationship with others, we must first learn to feel love for ourselves...acceptance & respect will follow then ;)
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